I was too fool to realize

I was too fool to realize that I can't pretend to be friend of people I really don't share anything with them.
I was too fool to believe that I could be happy in this city
I'm too stupid to just leave it
At the end of the day, my heart just feels so alone, so much misunderstood that the inner pain, became so big that my mind have to shut it down.
If nothing changes in a big way, my gym term will end when my contract expire in May of this year and I will moving on as I always do: "I walk alone"

It's funny

Got no friends, just Jack
Nobody to talk, only drink
Just when u need a little bit of reassurance
Nobody's up for you
Did some people say I do scare them?
Good for them, tho
I'd rather not be something to somebody who doesn't like, that tiny little things that together form humanity
Somebody told me a long time ago, that I didn't need a relationship because of me
I'm starting to agree more than ever with that statement
Because there's times that when I think of somebody just hurts me so much I'd rather not think about, just to ease the pain of my heart.

I don't know if I'm not going to regret to write this

I don't know if I'm not going to regret to write this, I do not know what It's worse
being drunk
or being a pathetic dreamer like me
I always thought I would live and die alone
Destiny or god or something it's laughing their asses of me
I had to reckon this I never been so good on telling somebody how I feel face to face and I'm scared of ending alone my days
Several months ago, for the first time in 3 years somebody made me truly dream
that someone like me could even have a chance
that's ironic
that's a relief
that's hurts a lot even
because I can't hug her
or even take her hand
or telling her face to face about how much means to me that tiny little conversations we got some nights
they set me back on track, keep calmed, learning to have some hope
Being hit so many times by the so called friends
Being hurt so many times by the so called good friends
I've lost my faith in the human beings
But this woman, not this time, she's the one who makes me smile
I can't remember last time somebody made me smile from my heart
Whatever happens
Whatever life throw up at me
Even If I fall again
I'll always remember your smile

Für Chrissy ;-)

This Is My Joy
Seeing your face
Just a photo a you

This Is My Joy
Feeling Your Smile
Knowing how your good feel us surround the air

This Is My Joy
Making ourselves smile each other
Enjoying ourselves despite being so far away

This Is My Torture
Not being able to hug you

This Is My Torture
Not feeling the touch of your hand

This Is My Torture
Not listening to your heartbeats

This my tiny little gift for your birthday
Along with my best wishes from the bottom of my heart

Just a little improvisation to say thanks

Gracias por estar ahi aunque no pueda sentirte
aunque no pueda tocarte
aunque suspire por una caricia tuya que quizá nunca llegue
porque aún estando los vientos en contra
tu sonrisa sopla y los aparta
todo eso me hace aún más añorarte
Al Loco caballero de raudo corazón, al cual le sacas lo mejor
no sabe como agradecerte
no sabe ya como halagarte
solo sabe que consigues su sonrisa por feo que haya sido el día